My Opinion about Midsommar

 Between the mental breakdowns and emotional rollercoaster that I have gone through during the pandemic, and as I mentioned before, because of it and my need to understand myself more and feel identified through the seventh art, I began to look for films about borderline and codependency.

And because I got the amazon prime video for free for 3 months (which I'm going to take advantage of and then I unsubscribe) I started looking for titles and I came across midsommar, I had already heard about it in a youtube summary, I commented on it with a couple of friends who had already seen it so I embarked on this journey of more than 2 hours towards despair, loneliness, codependency and finally madness.

The film is about a girl, who is very attached to her boyfriend. He, for his part, wants to break up with her, because he thinks she is very demanding of attention, very codependent and, in short, requires a lot of attention while he and his friends just want to have a good time, you know, sex, drugs and alcohol.

The protagonist does not receive the understanding and emotional comfort that she needs from her partner, and she knows it but she settles because she feels alone, and she really is, so she simply ignores her limits and needs. her. Her partner does not listen to her, she does not tell him what she is planning, or simply ignores her demands, when she rebukes him, he gets defensive so that in the end the protagonist feels guilty and apologizes. For her part, he apologizes to her friends who insist that he leave her, since he knows that it would be too cruel and difficult for her to leave her at that moment. He is not honest with his friends or with himself.

A look at codependency.

The term was coined for the first time to a person's need for a narcotic substance, but this type of addiction can also be towards another person or rather, the validation that person can provide.

I mean, the inability to say no to please others more and be recognized as helpful. This validation causes us to put aside our individual needs to meet the needs of the other, in the hope that this recognition can fill our emotional gaps. The problem is that we only remain emptier, more mentally and emotionally drained, and it can mean that instead of obtaining the desired goal, we push people further away or become victims of exploitation or mistreatment. Leaving even deeper emotional scars.

It sounds very stupid, I know. But it is true. I work every day to communicate my needs assertively, after many years of putting my needs aside for my colleagues, partners, relatives, superiors, etc... And if I don't put myself first, then why would others do it? the rest? People get used to it and take you for granted. And this exposes it in a very detailed way midsommar.

The film actually shows us another couple completely opposite to the main couple. These are affectionate, they hold hands, they want to get married, they look very committed, happy and safe. Our protagonist notices this and tries to get her boyfriend to behave in the same way, leading to uncomfortable situations during the film.

The interesting thing is that in fact the film is classified as a horror thriller. And it couldn't be more accurate. Isn't reality horrendous?

Lysergy and surrealism.

The film uses warm photography and as it gets darker the colors get more beautiful, and inanimate objects come to life. It transmits the synesthesia that the protagonist is experiencing to the viewer. I have to admit that seeing her a little stoned made me feel a bit like a bad trip...it's unknown if it's a bad trip, a nightmare, or really a true horror movie.

The protagonist is going through a duel, in addition to the fact that she has a family history of bipolarity and mood disorders. Coupled with codependency and the inability to deal with the reality of her so bleak of her, she is she begins to dissociate. She goes through denial, grief, resignation (she resigns herself to losing her boyfriend) until she can finally overcome the spiritual journey, purging all her misfortunes from the circle of samsara in a single week. She took centuries upon centuries off her karma wheel, but I added 2 extra years of therapy to my present life. Everything is tangible and symbolic at the same time. Because the protagonist travels to another country where all the events described take place.

It is another way of doing the Hero's journey, carried out by the major arcana in the Tarot, we could say that our protagonist begins as card 0, the madman, the fool or the clown until he ends with the card of the world, where he synchronizes with all the states of matter, the elements and nature, everything is synchronized with her, everything is in complete balance and everything is joy and ecstasy, which makes her look as if she would have lost her mind, but really everything was beginning to make sense instead.

My theories (Super Spoiler):

If it could be that by the time she tastes the mushrooms upon reaching her destination, being in a depressed, sad, and lonely state of mind, everything that happens afterward is nothing more than a bad trip, and in the end she realizes counts because he laughs and nothing makes sense.

My second theory is that she develops schizophrenia, and all that happens is in her head in a mental hospital after she finds her family dead (kind of like sucker punch flashbacks) and that she never made no trip. Another variant of this is that her family is not dead, she only found it done by the esquinazofrenia that she suffered and the constant threats of suicide from her sister.

My third theory is that it is a dream, she fell asleep at her boyfriend's house the night the incident happened, and she was sleeping for several times, it is not clear if it was even days.